Known Only To God...

Sunday, last week, I experienced some complications with the pregnancy, 9 weeks along. Monday, last week, we made an unexpected trip to the doctor's office. We were deeply saddened that our doctor could not find a heartbeat anymore.

Although this has to be almost the toughest few days of my life. The Lord was very gracious and His strength very real and very strong on our behalf this past week as I miscarried my 3rd precious little one. She or he joined their twin in Heaven only weeks apart.

The Lord allowed me to behold a miracle with my own eyes....to behold what for most - is something only God sees. Psalm 139:16 became so alive, "Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect..."And as the Bible affirms, we KNOW we shall see our babies one day. What peace and comfort that gives. We do not understand it all but one day we shall. Their first sight will be Heaven; their first steps will be on streets of gold, and their first words will be praise to their Creator LORD! In THIS is a mother's heart comforted!

Deuteronomy 33:27 "The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting Arms..."

Grief is very real. Grief is necessary. Grief has it's intended purpose. But to those of us that KNOW the Lord, may the grief always press us closer to Him, looking to Him and allowing Him -God of all Comfort to do just that.

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee, because he trusteth in Him. Isaiah 26:3

I could go on and on because there's so much I could share. I have a journal nearly full of just these past two months, and all the Lord has taught me, shown me, and blessed me with. Blessed be the name of the Lord.

I KNOW

I know thy sorrow, child; I know it well,

Thou needest not try with broken voice to tell.

Just let Me lay thy head down on My breast,

And find here sweetest comfort, perfect rest;

Thou needest not bear the burden, child, thyself,

I yearn to take it all upon Myself;

Then trust it all to Me today - tomorrow,

Yes, e'en foever; for I know thy sorrow.

Long years ago I planned it all for thee;

Prepared it that thou mightst find need of Me.

Without it, child, thou wouldst not come to

Find this place of comfort in this love of Mine.

Hadst thou no cross like this for Me to bear,

Thou wouldst not feel the need of My strong care;

But in thy weakness thou didst come to Me,

And through this plan I have won thee.

~Author Unknown ~